NC from W today. This would be the first day in a very, very long time. Perhaps over a year. I am good with it. I feel very calm that I am in my own home and taking care of my dogs and my own personal tasks. I have no idea where she is, but I suspect she is sleeping on her new BFFs couch. If she does get an apartment and needs furniture, she will face the reality of moving it out of this house. It all still feels so surreal. I made the mistake of reading the letter she wrote me a couple months ago. It’s unbelievable it could go from that to another A so quickly. I think back to her saying during BD that I was gone all summer and she “preferred it”. What a load of BS. I truly cannot believe she would do this again.
I am going full on GAL tonight. Out on the town with some new friends. Only thing I’m stressing about a little is money. She took my credit card that is on her account. I still have ways to use it via Apple Pay and such, but I do not know about it. I am hesitant to make any purchases on my own cards as I don’t even know if she will continue paying them. Majority of our cards are in my name and we use them for all purchases, plus the one in her name that she has now taken back the physical card. The last thing is her expensive plane ticket. Do I say anything about this? Is she seriously going to cash out her retirement so she can take this trip (she mentioned potentially needing to do it to pay for everything)? At this point, I could just not speak to her for another week and not even know whether or not she goes. But I do know she paid extra for insurance in case she wanted to cancel and get a refund.
