Divorce because I betrayed her trust - THREAD 4

[DaB35]

Interesting that my W emailed me on Tuesday morning to ask about the court order/financial stuff for the D. I replied Wednesday night with some info leaving the ball in her court. She hasn't come back to me yet. It can't be that important otherwise she'd have responded already surely?

I have had a rather up and down week, mainly due to the fact that I've been advised that the D is progressing.

2019 has not been the year I imagined. January to April was lovely as usual though. May 14th - a day that will have a slight pang of sadness about it (BD day), also August 3rd (our anniversary).

I guess the positive thing about all this is that I have had to examine a lot of aspects of my personality I have not been happy with for a long time, delve into them and fix them. The unfortunate result is that my M is in serious trouble and my W has lost respect and love for me, which she held so dearly and sincerely for years. I am sad for her, and sad for myself that I didn't do certain things better. I know what I did wrong now however. I have worked on myself seriously these last five months.

Actually, I realise I don't think I've mentioned that although W 'officially' decided to get D on 29 July (her discovery of my activity was 14 May). However, on 15 May she had emailed me - a long "how could you" email - and said "We are officially separated, and will be divorced soon after." So I guess around 24 hours she decided to D.

I have no idea what will happen between myself and W further down the line. Probably best that I don't know.

GAL for now - gym tonight and tomorrow, seeing sister and the dog Saturday, and gig on Sunday with a best mate.