Thanks for dropping by. I’ve been doing pretty well. Been keeping up to date on what is going on with others but haven’t had a whole lot to say about my sitch. Still have not seen any paperwork that indicates I am divorced but I’m assuming I am since I signed all the papers before the summer. XH was over yesterday. He saw my sister’s car in the driveway so drove around and went in his mother’s entrance to talk with her and text me he was there so I would send our son downstairs. He still cannot face my family members. I wandered down with S11 and we chatted for a bit. He told me that OW has Shingles really bad. That [censored] for her....karma is a b#tch. He left after about 15 minutes and I commented to his mom how silly it is that he can’t come to the front door when my sister is here. She nodded and said he asked her a week ago if we still “trash” him. She said she told him she though we were”over him” and had better things to talk about...lol. My thought... if you don’t want to worry about people saying bad things about you, stop doing bad things. Simple as that. Don’t do the crime if you can’t do the time. Anyway...he and I, as co-parents, are doing a really good job and my kids know that even though I was really mad at their dad for awhile, I will always love him for giving me them. We also did my daughter’s parent-teacher interview together and will do my son’s on Monday. It was fine. Last year, I couldn’t shake the urge to punch him the entire time and this year...meh. I am indifferent.
Things with Jack are status quo. I see him every weekend and he is home during the week. Our communication during the week is reasonable. If I feel the need to text him about something, he answers. He doesn’t initiate contact a whole lot. I don’t take it personally as I have come to understand that he is someone that only texts when he has a purpose and idle chitchat isn’t something he does. Plus...when we see each other, it is usually from Friday evening to Monday morning so we get a lot of time together. He still has not found a job. He’s had a few offers far away but isn’t desperate enough yet to accept them. His last employer recently told him that they have some new projects coming up and will need more people but the timeline is unclear. I am hoping it is soon as the company is in my town so Jack and I can have a more normal dating relationship if/when he moves here instead of the feast or famine one we have now. I finally met one of his friends...lol. He had a gig last week so I went to watch and met his drummer. He seemed very nice...married, closer to my age, vegan, has a pool table at home. I got there during their break and he and I chatted non stop until they had to play again. Jack barely said a word...lol. He did look happy to see me though and had clearly been watching for me to arrive as he came outside and called my name the second I got out of my car.
Anyway...time to start my day. Thank goodness it is Friday. It’s been a draining week. Lots of seriously ill kids coming through our doors and I was the supervisor this week so it was my job to figure out what to do with them. Assigned the most concerning one to myself. This kid actually lit himself on fire cause he was mad and “didn’t know what else to do.” He’s having hallucinations and delusions as well so it seems like he is developing a psychosis. This is a kid who could die quite easily though so it is a lot of responsibility. I meet him this afternoon. Hopefully we can connect on some level so he is motivated to work with me.
