I’m doing great at GAL and staying busy. I realized last night when I flipped the tv on in bed that I haven’t sat down to watch TV in weeks. The last show I watched was the S2E2 of Seal Team. The DVR is full of my I watched shows and I’ve realized that it’s because I can’t sit in my chair and relax anymore. It’s one of the physical wedges that I unknowingly put in place. I love that chair and we used to sit in it together occasionally or I’d sometimes move to the couch to sit next to her while we watched a show together. Eventually she quit coming to sit next to me and I reciprocated until we no longer sat next to each other at all. We realized the only shows we have in common now are SWAT and Survivor (family show). She watches a lot of garbage tv (and she fully admits it’s garbage). She says it’s so she doesn’t have to focus on plot lines and just uses it as a tool to escape her head. I re-arranged the furniture about a week ago to try to get the chair out of view of the TV but the way our living room is set up, it just doesn’t work. I can’t sit there comfortably anymore and it’s too awkward to sit on the couch so I just don’t watch TV anymore. Not a bad change but I do miss a couple of my shows. I may have to have a Sunday me day where I’ll go to the basement and binge everything for one lazy day.
I think I need to read up more on detachment and how to apply it in my sitch. With the holidays coming up, I want to spend family time together, but she told me doing so much Halloween stuff together the past couple weeks was a little much for her. We were invited to my Aunt and Uncle’s for Thanksgiving and since we split years with family and this is my year, I asked her to think about what she’d like to do and that we were invited prior to BD. They reached out this week for RSVP’s and I told my W I need to reply but no rush. This was on Tuesday and I sold her I’d like to reply by the end of the week. She told me yesterday that I can reply with a yes which was a bit of a relief because I didn’t want to spend TG away from my kids.
Now I just need to figure out how to maintain a positive family atmosphere while detaching from her.
