Thank you T and Sandi. It is extremely difficult, but I did what I had to do. It doesn't stop me from second guessing myself. What if I had just not asked who was on the phone? It just all feels inevitable.
As far as the military taking care of me, it is really just an obligation on W to take care of her dependents. I fear not receiving money from her to pay for anything, but I agree that at least a portion I can have garnished. It feels crazy it would even come to that and I guess that's why I fear it. Regardless, it doesn't change the fact that there is a huge financial concern. Mainly, I do not see how she will pay my tuition next semester, so if I did get a part time job, realistically it would be to pay for that. Maybe this makes it more acceptable for me to do, IDK. Ultimately it is my responsibility to make sure I get this degree and where I want to be as fast as possible.
I have not heard from her today. I am in a state of peace and shock, with a huge pool of emotions simmering just beneath.
