I still cry like a baby almost on a daily basis. I am sticking to my guns about not spending time together and really trying to remind myself that I am taking time now. She isn't making the rules, she doesn't get to determine my schedule or my life. I am taking time and I really need to think about whether it is healthy for me to be in a R with her. No more begging, no more hopeful anticipation for attention - waiting on baited breath for a glance, smile, or the brush of a hand. I'm on a voyage to FIND my worth, appreciate, and love myself.
That you're fighting for yourself *despite* crying like a baby on a daily basis shows your strength. I hope you have a Happy Halloween, with big ghosties and goblins at work, and little ghosties and goblins tonight.
