Steve, I completely understand what you’re saying. I’m struggling with where and how to give her space. The “mysterious” reference was only meant as I’m breaking out of my comfort zone to GAL. My confidence level is way above where it was even a few days ago and I think she’s picking up on it. It’s a significant change that differs from the past few rounds of “change” where it ultimately came from a selfish place. I was looking for instant gratification and gave up when I didn’t see results. This time, I’m changing me and not just my actions and it’s kind of mysterious to us both. It’s still awkward, especially at night and in the morning because that’s where our old daily routine (kiss and hug goodbye in the am and kiss goodnight) is completely gone. This is where I’m trying to establish a new routine that we’ll both be comfortable with. My only fear is that this new routine could become too comfortable for either of us. I want to build a new R with my W, but right now I’m in the friend zone and I don’t want to get permanently stuck there. I know it’s her decision but I don’t want to give her cake and watch her eat it in front of me.
