As a former alcoholic, I would like to suggest something to you. These sitches are hard enough to deal with properly when you are clear and sober minded, let alone when you've clouded your judgement with a mind-altering substance. Consider making one of your 180s to not drink until your sitch has reached its logical conclusion.
Just a thought.
As far as feeling sappy last night and angry this morning, we refer to this as the emotional roller-coaster. You will cycle between feelings like this for a while. Just try to remain consistent in action and word through the up-and-downs. Many a LBS has done more harm to their sitch by being impulsive on that emotional roller-coaster. Reaching out to her while sappy, harping on her while angry will only further worsen your sitch. Stick to the plan. Let the process work. Read, study, and know sandi's rules. I kept a copy of them locally on my phone so I could read them multiple times a day.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
