Divorce because I betrayed her trust - THREAD 4

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Received official notification that our 'decree nisi' has been granted today.

For non-UK people that means that the court has agreed that the marriage has irretrievably broken down due to my 'unreasonable behaivour' and they cannot see a reason why my W and I should not get a D.

Not a good thing to see coming into your email inbox, but there we go.

Now, she has to wait 43 days before applying for a "decree absolute" (which formally ends the marriage). I still agree, it's a bit of paper. A formality. However, I believe W does not see it this way; I believe she feels that's it and there is no chance of R or anything. But then again I know I shouldn't try to mind-read as it is not productive, so I'll stop! What happens in the future happens.

I am still following the mantra of not believing what W does or says. I have not had any chance to validate as much recently with her - we both appear to have gone dark on each other. Well, I've definitely gone dark on her; she is just not contacting me/ignoring me unless absolutely necessary.

I miss her, of course I do, but right now I keep repeating in my head that I am AMOAFWL and have owned my s*** and sorted myself out. I feel better for that, but there's no denying I miss interacting with W now and then; I mainly miss laughing together and our silly in-jokes that meant nothing to anyone else.

I will just continue to GAL and keep up my PMA and maintain my gym routine etc. That is becoming obvious to my friends and family, so it's becoming more natural. It is her loss. Guess when I next see her, I crack out the nice clothes and cologne, and just present myself in the best way possible (but now it feels like doing that isn't forced, it's more natural as I say).

I suppose initially I was a WH, then my wife became WAS and I became LBH...Hmm...