So while I feel less sappy than I did last night. Today I'm feeling a lot of anger and resentment towards my wife.
Yes I feel abandoned and betrayed. I forgot that she mentioned the other day that while in the relationship and going out meeting all these new friends that she didn't ever want to come home because of how negative or jealous I would act.
I feel that it was going out together that I missed, and the only reason she could go out to the early hours was because I was at home watching the kids. So I facilitated this in some way. She never called to update that she was ok or what time she would be back.
If I called or texted I was being controlling
In the past when I went out. Despite calling she would ring and check up every 45mins and was incredibly jealous.
I know this anger is normal. I have to go pick my daughter up from school later so will see my wife this evening. Going to be hard to maintain a Pma.
I'm also feeling like I should do less to help. I moved out, I jump when she calls to help out with kids or home, I respected her decision to not even talk about why we were seperating etc.
Did all this to placate her, very prone to trying to nice her back.
I sometimes feel it would be somewhat malicious to make it more difficult for her. Not to jump when she calls, or block some of her planned nights out by not being available for the kids.
That's a hard one to balance up, I want to see my kids as much as possible but by doing so it just facilitates her single life and part of me feels she chose this road and should feel some of the hardship.
