Hey there Turbine. I've not been following along too closely but pop over from time to time.

As tough as it is, you need to get out of your own head. That's where the darkness is. I'm worried that you've stopped taking your cholesterol meds. At our time of life we need to take as good of care of ourselves and our plumbing so that we have good health in the years to come.

Know that what you are feeling is normal, especially in situations that drag out like your's does with all the mixed signals. The resentment is normal. Someone who is supposed to have your back puts a knife in it. I've been there myself.

You'll get through this. It's going to hurt and hurt for a while. Focus on the positive things in your life no matter how minor they are. Those sparks of joy will help light your way as will your Faith.

On BD
H52, W50
T27, M26
S21, D23
BD-9-Mar-16
D-15-Jan-18 Final-19-Apr-18
I am a storyteller. The story may do you no good.
But a story is never for the listener. It is always for the one who tells