Steve85, wow thank you so much for that. I truly was being selfish. She was in pain and all i could do was feel sorry for myself like,"I'm so tired having to work more hours while she's recovering." or "Look at me i'm hurting too..." That was really weak and now that I see my error, I can understand why my behavior caused the loss of love.There were probably many times in the past when I acted like that which compounded over time. I needed to be her rock and I was selfish instead. Again, thank you for pointing that out.