So yeah. I do love her deeply. First to admit I am struggling with loving enough to let her go. Also struggling deeply with concept of my happiness without her by my side.
Obviously I didn't show enough during the marriage for her to feel it was a more attractive option as opposed to her idea of freedom.
The idea of losing her is gut wrenching but she has already left and appears clear that she no longer loves me.
Deep down I want her to be happy, if she was to be with me I would want it to be because she chose to be.
Still feels like early days to me, although I recognise she built towards this for a long time.
Is DBing truly about letting go? It feels a lot like giving up on the relationship
I feel a compulsion to say it doesn't have to be this way
I want to keep fighting for this in some way , obviously without pushing her away.
I guess somewhere that emotional dependency is hard to shake and I'm still heavily invested in her.
