Confused and Lost

[KristinG]

Hey DB warriors! Just wanted to give a quick weekend update.

Went out and GAL Friday and Saturday night with some friends. Dinner and movies and games - oh my! It was actually kind of nice to have distractions, even if just for a little bit. WW and I friendly texted all weekend, but I have been successful in sticking to my guns on not spending time together or seeing each other. I'm finding it easier when I don't see her to focus on myself. Whenever I feel anxious or scared about the future, I gently remind myself that this is also a gift of time to decide if she is someone that I want. BD #2 has made my emotions a little on the up and down side as I am sickened that they are/have been still physical.

WW has been freaking out a little. I think it's because she can sense that I am serious and will not tolerate the triangle any longer. She keeps calling me pet names, saying ILY, and telling me that she can only see a future with me. I haven't really responded other than to say that I want the same things, but will not be in a triangle.

I'm laser focused on myself and growth. I haven't talked with our mutual friends about anything going on which also feels nice. At first it felt weird, as if I was hiding something. Now, I'm proud of the fact that whenever someone brings up a temp check on our R (ie: So how are you both doing? Are ya'll working things out? Etc) I can just say "I just want to spend time with you and not think about anything for a while. I'm working on myself." It feels empowering.

Anyways, I hope you all had a good weekend and I'll try to catch up on your threads to see how everyone else is doing!