I tried to be up all weekend, but was unsuccessful. So I just played with my kids or kept to myself. I didn't interact with the wife much. My wife kept asking if something was wrong. I just said I was tired from work. I tried to avoid one-on-one conversations. She also propositioned me a couple of times and I said no. She actually came into the bedroom only wearing a robe and flashed me. I think it was to get a reaction.
I watched a college football game with my friends, but they lost so that didn't help.
A few things. I did sign up for the site. I decided that I needed to see what was going on a regular basis. She didn't post anything this weekend, thankfully.
I've looked through your comments-thanks. But I don't understand a few of them. I don't want to make myself more attractive to the opposite sex now. I don't care about other women and this point and frankly I'm baffled why a pro marriage site would say this is ok. I understand making myself more attractive to my wife, but I don't get trying to get random women to hook up with me. I'm not sure how detaching from my wife helps anything. If anything I think it will help me decide to move forward with the divorce. If I detach, I don't care what happens to her.
As for the divorce decision, I don't want to split up a family. At the same time, I don't know how I can forgive my wife and move forward. It's a huge gut punch. I don't think my wife really gets this. She doesn't understand why I'm acting weird. She just thinks we are going through a rough patch. Not to mention we couldn't afford to keep 2 households.
I had a thought about cutting the internet service to the house and relying only on phones. Then I could limit her access to posting photos. Then I could avoid the confrontation and hope that she'd stop doing this.
I want to talk to someone about this. I can't afford regular counseling but the local college has a clinic run by students that I make look at. This is eating me up inside.
