Mix of odd emotions today . I’m having a hard time myself just getting back into the flow of normalcy having both of us committed to M. I became very independent over the last few months with making decisions on pretty much everything by myself and for myself . If I wanted to go GAL on a Monday I just went . If I wanted new clothes I just went shopping . If I didn’t want to talk to H I just didn’t answer phone . H did spend alot of time in and out of our home and with me . But I had let go of the I guess attachment of having a committed relationship and just lived for me and the kids . Don’t want to backslide on it but at same point being in a marriage I do have to consider H opinion on things too . Maybe it’s the unknown. Planning GAL was easy I had a few days or evenings a week open as H was very active in co parenting when split .
I’m starting to think I may need IC to just sort out some of my emotions . Being a LBS teaches you that at any moment the person you trusted the most can change their mind .
H I will say has been great over last few days . No real R talks . Just loving and committed . No confusion .
