P.S. Last week I wrote on this thread that I don't really think of OW much, just that when the thought of her came, I did have those dark thoughts, but it wasn't that often. That was true. This that is happening now is a new regression to the way I was before, years ago after BD.
I believe I will see the bounty of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord with courage. Be stouthearted, and wait for the Lord.