I do let myself get wrapped up in all of it. I find my life is much less stressful if I try to let it go. Although I still get sad, I don't have the anxiety inside.
He made a comment that I don't talk to him like he is an adult, don't give him respect. I am really having a hard time figuring out what I am saying or how I am saying it that makes it come across like that. I feel like if I question him about anything (when he is making truck pmt since they keep calling the house) he says I am disrespecting him.
It just frustrates me because I woke up in a good mood, was working in the yard & then I let him get to me so it has been on my mind all day.
I know that M problems take 2 people & i know I contributed to our problems, but it just seems like his attitude has caused alot of our problems. I am only saying that (blaming him?) because he said it to me before he moved back in - 99% of our problems were because of his attitude & that he had unrealistic beliefs about marriage - it should be easy & fun.
Oh well. I guess I am going to relax tonight & try to get my mind off of it. I just hope he doesn't show up here tomorrow. Never would have thought I would say that.
