H just came by w/ his friend (where is he supposedly living) & friend's fiance to get his tool chest fromthe garage. I said " I thought you were coming over this morning to work on the basement, based on your phone call yesterday. I didn't go to work this morning because I figured you would be here & need help" (I know probably shouldn't have said it but I was pissed her showed up here w/ people (that think I am a bitch by the way) & didn't call 1st. He then proceeded to call me names - fat, etc. in front of his friend. I said I didn't appreciate him talking to me like that in front of other people.

He then said he was taking my curio cabinet w/ him today. The story there is that he gave it to me for my b'day the 1st yr we were together. Ever since, whenever we argue he says he bought & it wasn't for me - changing history again. He knows it means alot to me & sure enough he emptied it & took it out of here today. I know it is just a thing, but it still hurts.

Before he left he made a comment about how if I don't talk to him w/ respect he won't talk to me anymore. I probably shouldn't have said anything about him not showing up this morning but I don't ever call him names or say hateful things to him.

I have felt stronger more often the last few days & starting to detach but then when this stuff happens I feel hopeless. I just don't know how to deal with watching my life unravel before my eyes... I really thought I could be a success story since he has been so back & forth the last year, but I am starting to highly doubt it. I try to think positive but then it can all be blown away in an instant by hurtful words & actions.

He also said that his sister asked him last night why he married me (don't know the context of the question or what exactly the conversation was about) & he said he has no idea & it was a big mistake. I know it is just what he thinks right now so he is rewriting the past but it still hurts so much. Especially since he said how much he loved me a few weeks ago.

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