Journaling -

H called me this morning. Was mad I had spent time w/ his family. They had invited me over Memorial Day for a cookout w/ his sister & other relatives. They didn't call him since they didn't even have his phone #. The only reason they even knew he had left again was from me - don't think he wanted to admit it to them so he stays away.

Anyway, he called to tell me to not talk to them, they didn't want me around, etc. He said he was coming over tomorrow to get more stuff, do some projects I have been mentioning so he doesn't leave me w/ such a mess to deal w/ in the house. He then said that as long as I don't talk to his family & I don't call him, he will be fair in D.

I called his sister to see if she had talked to him. She said no but said she doubts her parents would say they don't want me around. She & I both think that he just doesn't want them talking to me because then they might figure out that half the stuff he says is BS. I think he keeps different parts of his life separate so he doesn't get his stories mixed up,. Plus, I think he gets mad cuz his parents like me & think he is being stupid.

So, I had a pretty crappy day. tried not to let it get to me but it did. Then he calls again in the afternoon. I almost didn't pick up but figured he would call front desk to find me. He said he wanted to apologize for being a d**k today & before & for being one in the future. He said we both know he will be again so he is apologizing now for it. He said he didn't want to argue & was sorry. I said okay & we hung up.

Very weird. Don't know if he really feels bad or if he thinks that if he makes me too mad I will screw him over in D.

I am torn between saying that he can't tell me who I am allowed to talk to & just backing off from his family. They invited me to go w/ them to an outdoor concert next Saturday that I really want to go to, but don't know if I should. I think he is being unreasonable but I also don't want him to not have a relationship w/ his family.

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