I think ultimately what he is trying to say is that if I won't tell him that I will agree to the divorce then he will make my life hell. He asked if I would agree to the divorce & I just said "whatever". I assume I eventually have to agree to it someday, but we have been (not legally) separated for almost a year & he has never done anything but say he wants a divorce. Has never taken any action towaards it.
He now has him self convinced that we had a terrible relationship & there was never anything there. I said then why did you come back last month - he says it was only for me because I made him feel guilty - I said that is pretty hard to believe coming from a person who will rarely do anything for anyone else that he doesn't want to.
I guess I just started thinking that maybe if say I will agree to it, he will settle down now. Right now I think he has a 1 track mind about it.
The bad thing is, he is living with a guy we work with (I don't really know him at all tho) so this guy is hearing one side of the conversation - that I refuse to give him a divorce, & am being a b**ch, etc - & will tell people at work that I am desperate, etc. H is on this kick saying that I lead everyone to believe that I am so sweet & perfect, so everyone at work likes me, but I am just fooling them because I am not really like that at home. Well, I never claimed to be perfect , but I do get along with most people & am in a position to be helpful to them so people do like me because I go out of my way for them - that is part of my "make everyone happy" personality, which is good & bad.
Enough babbling. I am just so sad it has come to this. It is like he is a different person. He just keeps turning everything around. Beofre he would always back down on the divorce & start hanging around again. Before at least it went in waves - I felt that if I worked a little harder at DBing, bettering mnyself etc then there was still a chance. Right now I feel pretty hopeless.
