H is moved out again & pretty much wants no contact w/ me, unless of course he needs something from me, but I am not allowed to need anything from him... funny how that works. I panic because I know I need to detach & let him come to me, but I get scared that he won't. He has said before that one of the reasons he came home was because when he saw me & spent time w/ me it made him realize he wanted to be here. So, I am trying to figure out how to have some interaction with him but not pursue him.
I called the house today & he answered the phone (I was checking messages) I asked what he was doing there since he hasn't been by since he left. He said he was putting in my window air conditioner. This surprised me because I had asked if he could help me w/ a few things around the house sometime & he said no.
I thanked him & then tried to make small talk. He didn't say much but I then asked him how he was doing - he said okay. I asked how he liked living w/ his friend - he said it was okay. I then asked (I know - 2 x 4 time) if it was better than being at home. He said always. I asked if we were going to be friends & he said no. I asked why & he said because he doesn't want to be. Guess that shows me not to ask...
I called him later about some mail we got after I got home from work. Asked him a question about when he changed my oil the last time because I have to go get it done again & needed some info. He then volunteered to change it for me. Now he just called to get info about our dentist cuz he needs to make an appt.
I don't understand him offering to help me w/ things now. I hope it means he is starting to "thaw" out a little again. I have been trying to leave him alone more this week & just do my own thing. Today was the most I had talked to him in 2 weeks.
It is all so confusing. I am reading DR again. I am trying to work on me - getting back on my diet, exercising, working in the yard, etc. I know I need to back off but am afraid if I don't find reasons to talk to him, it will be out of sight, out of mind.
