So I'm feeling extremely anxious about my Wife and kids returning from their holiday tomorrow. She has been communicating about the kids , sending photos and sharing jokes. All of which have I admit raised my hopes probably above where it should be at this time.
There was one morning where she shared that our 6yr old daughter had got lost in the complex and it had really panicked my wife. I could tell she had been worried to tell me. I reassured her and validated how difficult and scary it must have been.
I guess I'm anxious about them returning and that she will remain free of doubt that this is what she wants. This new normal includes me getting the keys to my new place Friday and with the dog gone and a place for the kids to stay the distance between us will have grown considerably. Thus giving her the private life she says she wants.
I guess I feel like I'm not fighting for our relationship by giving her what she wants. Desperately want to know where I stand and if there is any hope right now.
Again I know that this neediness will push her away. Just feel inactive.
This is compounded by her believe I was trying to control her and withholding affection to control her when in fact it was due to some significant issues on my part with fear of intimacy.
Just anxious that when I see her I'm going to struggle to portray that I'm doing fine without her.
