So I'm now in the same camp as the rest of you - no pushing for MC, no asking if she's still in it. If either happens on their own or due to movement on the part of WAW, great - I'll be happy and take that as a step in the right direction. Otherwise, putting pressure on things and trying to enforce change isn't the right move.
Things will unfold how they unfold and the best thing I can do is make a plan for how I'm going to take care of myself, how I'm going to improve my ability to be a better partner in whatever my next relationship is, and how I'm going to achieve my goals in the next year. It's obviously difficult, but I'm trying to frame this time in my life as a positive thing; it hurts and it's insanely difficult, but I can either use this time to feel sorry for myself or I can use this time to grow. I'm going to choose the latter. And if we do R, I'll (and we'll) be in a better place for it.
Four months seems like an eternity, but I'm coming around to the idea that it's really not. Of course I'm scared that we'll just fade away, that we'll just lose touch - I think everyone in my/our situations feels like that. It's hard to have a lot of optimism and blindly assume that WAW does miss me and does love me and all of that. But it is what it is.
