Thank you, Rooskers. I hope you and D are hanging in there.
Journaling...
There isn't much new to report on my sitch. I've been NC with W for about 3 weeks now since she left with D12. It's been a roller coaster honestly. One minute I'm feeling confident that my new life will be a good one. Then I get hit with a wave of sadness and I find myself spinning trying to find ways to reconcile why this happened again and why she felt I was such a horrible partner.
Oh and I'm getting sick and tired of everything and anything reminding me of W all the time, whether that be a restaurant, store, a park, or anywhere else we used to frequent.
I'm also struggling with GAL as most of my friends are married and have kids. Trying to get them out of the house is a challenge within itself. I'm still in the gym working my ass off but doing things with other people has been tough.
Thanks for reading.
Thorn
Hey Thornton -
Sorry to hear you're having a hard time. It is very frustrating when the mind wanders back to places of familiarity with W, and to top it off GAL just feels forced.
I think it's always like that - cycling around and around, up and down. I've found there is no fast or easy way to stop it, the brain constantly seeks ways to solve this problem, despite there being no viable solution. In part I find this is what makes me so tired and burnt out. It seems like you're dealing with it too.
Can't really offer much in the way of advice because I'm struggling these days (not sleeping, nightmares, incessant thinking, exhaustion and other jolly wonderful things) - but do know that you're not alone in this.
