I stink at quoting, so bear with me. The first time I was a walkaway. But in my head I imagined this amazing life I was going to have with someone else. I did end up meeting someone, he was divorced. We began to spend a lot of time together. We would go on day trips, spend evenings having drinks and talking about life. Just fun conversation. It never became anything physical. Looking back, if I had more sexual experience (I had only ever been with ex at that point) it may have gotten physical. But I looked at this guy, and starting thinking of ex and our family, his new happy life WITHOUT ME and decided I wanted to be a part of that. He had a little bit of hesitation but not much.
My ex was definitely a MNG. He would say whatever to appease me but then do the opposite because that is what he really wanted to do. Which infuriated me more then if he would have just stuck up for himself, now he lied to me. He wasn't the man and I the woman, if that makes sense. I am also super insecure, I am working on this. I need a lot of words of affirmation and quality time and he didn't give me that. So it wasn't loss of interest, it was that we went right back to old ways and that didn't work. I also didn't change myself at all. Someone should have told me to be less bossy and let him feel like a man. 😁
When all this happened I had no guidance. I should have changed myself too and we both should have put in more effort to make the next go-around different. I expected that because I left HIM, I should go back and he be the perfect man for me. That's why DB makes so much sense to me now.
I almost forgot something. So, the second and final split I was definitely a WW. I had met someone else at a party we were at together. He gave me feelings I didn't have with ex. So when I broke things off I had him in my mind.
