Divorce because I betrayed her trust - THREAD 4

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When I got to the house this evening (empty as W works late on Fridays) I went to check if I had any mail (none), and noticed a small card on the coffee table. I admit it was weak of me, but I had a look. Was from one of W's friends; she lives about 10minutes away.

"Sorry I haven't been able to see you much lately as you go through this difficult time. You are amazing and life will be amazing for you. Just have to get through a scary forest first! Love you."

I first thought it was nice that she had people nearby, but then felt a bit annoyed. Not sure why - I have no proof that she has led my W, and of course W won't admit it, but at the same time it is certainly plausible that she has enabled W's decision to D. Maybe it was the half-patronising tone? She's always been a kind of 'mummy' figure out their group of 3 or 4 friends (one of my W's college friends calls her 'Magnolia' behind her back because "she only seems to talk about cushions, mortgages and nappies"!). I don't know what to think. My sister says she's definitely influenced W (along with W's sister). Both are very domineering women, and W is by contrast reality quite timid despite her bravado extrovert exterior and likes to please people. Maybe that was one of the problems in our M: she ended up in a position (i.e. our R) where she could be dominant over someone else (me) as I was very passive and avoided conflict just like she did.

I know this should not be on my mind at all. I just wanted to journal it here. I got back to GAL when I got home. I cooked myself a nice meal, and sold a few more things on Ebay tonight and got those ready for collection in the morning, then watched a nice programme on TV with mum. Also got a phonecall about yet another gig in November - I appear ot bein demand! - so pocket money is not a worry leading up to Christmas