I will definitely be the one to find the marriage counselor. I’ve reached out to a few coaches who have done Michelle’s training . I may let the dust settle a little before scheduling and see how his pace is and commitment. Saying and actions are two totally different things .
Little voice right now is telling me he wants to work on marriage but not to jump in head first . I’m scared in all reality . I don’t think I really processed how deep down the last year effected me . How truly hurt I am by some of it . I love my H . I want a better new marriage. But there’s a huge part of me now that really thinks would he have done the same for me ? Would he have stood for his marriage even when it was the darkest . I chose to love unconditionally it was something I never understood until recent weeks and this forum . I’m still DBing not pursuing , not clingy , didn’t bring up what he said about us working on this and I’m not calling or texting first . I’m Still distancing . I will admit it’s nice being pursued after watching him run away so hard . H is starting recognize good things in the marriage . His faults he’s admitting . My strengths are noticed . His weaknesses more apparent.
