ozman, just came in to encourage you. Hang in there. This is likely the hardest thing emotionally you've ever gone through (and that says a lot because you've been through a lot). It can be difficult to remain patient. But doing nothing is always better than doing the wrong thing. Remember, when you feel you need to act, usually the best course of action is to do nothing.
Hang in there!
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