Little update on my sitch. Or new troubles.

On the one hand I have wonderfull news in that I got offered a position as an engineer with a great company back in the USA. But I keep thinking of my toddler that I will leave behind with the divorced wife.

We are divorced half a year now. I dont feel bad when I am not with her. I have made my peace, sort of. I cry less.

But most of our interactions are her attempting to bait me into a fight.
It is unrelentless and full force. I really dont know how much more a man can take.
Many of my friends and family have said that I have been too patient thru all of this.
Well, its not like we have a choice when you have a kid. I dont want to leave my little man behind so to say.
So I deal with her crap to be with the kid.

Once I move for work next week, I will be gone for a long time and will not see the little one and will be dependent on her good will to skype so i can see the kid. I was at her new place earlier. Pure madness. A new dog, pooping all over. The kid being happy and jumping.
My only reason for being there was to return the kid to her and to deliver her groceries (extra good will effort on my part).
I also want to invest some time on child proofing the place,
I added window bars the other day since they are on the 3rd floor and the window swings open and a toddler can easily fall out.
Tonight I was looking at her electrical panel to make sure there was a power relay to allow for leaks or short circuits. Its a life saver and mandatory but these old houses dont usually have them.

While I am trying to put in good work for them, her insults came hard.
"Why are you in my house? Dont you think its time you left" she said.

I picked up my stuff and left.

2 minutes ago she was telling me about her day and to work on the computer later.

2 days ago she was trying to convince me that I am probably gay.. which I am not.
The attacks are laughable.

Fathers LBS my heart goes out to you. We didnt sign up for this crap. We have to raise a kid dealing with a madman.

Sigh...


B.D in December 2018
Physical Affairs discovered in April 2019
Divorced May 2019
H (me) 49
W (her) 29