Divorce because I betrayed her trust - THREAD 4

[DaB35]

Had a nice dinner with my best mate. Talked about a house he wants to build mainly.

He asked how I was and I said I was doing well; talked about work, gym, being closer to my family etc. He then said he met up with W last week as he was working near our house. He told me she is still in a bad place. She's still angry, and has been having some mental health troubles (bear in mind I did suggest she get IC months ago, but she refused). He said he helped her out regarding certain things (presumably financial stuff that I'd otherwise take care of).

I had a confliction of emotions on learning this.
I felt guilty; whilst I'm GALing and 180ing and smashing IC, I wanted to find her and make her feel better and help her out.
I felt somewhat indifferent; I thought "it's her decision to do this, not mine. She has to live with that decision. I wanted to R and do MC. Only she wanted D."
I felt worried; is he going to tell her "yeah he's absolutely fine and he seems totally over you." ?
I felt sad and pitiful; thinking of her struggling.

Difficult certainly.

I need to text her tomorrow to turn the alarm off as I have to collect stuff from the garage. Do I need to ask her how she's doing at all - would that be considered pursuing, or only if I said certain things?


I'm going to the gym now to clear my mind and then relax tonight when I get back.