LH. Nah my friend. I am ready to move on. I just want to make sure I didn’t explore some option that I should have. Her alibi as her to where she has been also is pretty iron clad. If I needed to pick up some slack where I have slipped than maybe I should wait a while. I’m done. But if she is willing to work on it and I just blow by that opportunity than I would regret it. Does that make sense? Like I’m done. But I’m still willing to give it a shot if she is.
If she is still done after 4 months. Than I’m done too. No sweat. If she is willing to give it a try than I’m all in
So I figure i have 3 options
1 Start saying ILY again (cause it’s true). And than have a big R talk, sort stuff out. See where she is and go from there. If it’s D great, if it’s R great. But clear the air. Lay it all out in the table. A or no A. Let her know I’m not mad or sad and I’m fine with whatever. Everybody’s showing their hand. There is no dishonesty. Full transparency. If my cancer is too much, that’s ok. I don’t hold it against her. If she doesn’t love me any more. That’s ok too. She has been unsure about our M since it started. The day we got married her dad asked her “are you sure about this”. Her response “I don’t know”. Then they walked down the aisle. Lol. But just be open and honest. Two human beings just being decent to one another. And if it’s over? Call it. I mean her no I’ll will. And to be honest I don’t think she does me either
2 wait till Jan and then do above convo.
3 DB my butt off and see what happens. I am in prime position to do that very well now. Cause I have zero neediness. Cause I am over her
I hope all that made sense.
Also I have no interest in a lawyer. I know my rights. I don’t think she is trying to screw me or take S from me. From where I sit. She is a great mom, she has been a good wife, everything just got too much and she doesn’t know how to handle it.
We couldn’t afford lawyers anyways. I would be for mediation. You know? How civilized people act. That care about each other. But for whatever reason can’t be together
