Divorce and Acceptance Part 4

[Pax_luv]

Hello there,
I continue to post less and less and am finding it more and more challenging to keep up with threads. That’s the sign of progress, I guess. It’s a good thing.

Having a hard time falling asleep so I thought I would journal here. In terms of the divorce, We’re getting closer to the mandatory settlement. If you’ve followed along, you know I’ve tried to play a clean karma game this whole time. I had to be very firm on the legal side of things to protect myself from my ex. Funny, He thinks I’ve played every game in the book and I’m a gold digger because I haven’t succumbed to his demands. Oh well. I know the truth. Interestingly enough, it was about a month ago, he got mad at me for dropping off the dog late (12 minutes) and gave me a big earful and was yelling at me from the porch. I didnt apologize like the old pax would do, and he ended up telling me that I was being passive aggressive. I actually thought this was amusing. I don’t react to him at all anymore and now I’m passive aggressive. Oh well. Think all you want buddy! Sad that I’m actually to the point of complete indifference.

Going back to why I’m here. (And I can’t remember if I shared this or not). As the years have gone on, I have become less afraid of sharing the details of my sitch out of fear of being found out. The truth is, this whole divorce has played out exactly as I expected it to so I Don’t feel like I have anything to lose. All that can happen now, is ex will find this site and then sue me for defamation of character or something. Heck, he sued my lawyer for making degrading comments about him in court. They were all true, by the way. The case was thrown out because by law, ex couldn’t sue my lawyer.

Anyway...

In my settlement proposal, my lawyer did put a dig in there outlining all the money that ex paid to another woman... the same woman who’s abortion he funded.... the same woman who pretty much had my ex in tears because he was so upset that she didn’t ask him to keep the baby. That poor woman was a struggling actress and it would ruin her career if she had a baby. (You can’t tell but I’m being very sarcastic as I type this out).

So, my lawyer thought it should be documented so he can pay back the community for misuse of funds. I actually agree, but it’s a low blow on my part. And that’s not usually how I act. We haven’t submitted it yet but I’ve been going back and forth on whether or not it should be included. Hmmmmm. Again... nothing to lose. He was responsible for his actions during the marriage. What a charmer.