So AS. Let me clear something up. Brain cancer is a funny thing. Stats said 3.5 years to 17 years. Lol that’s quite a spread. It’s been 7.5 years and I still feel great. I just always have the docs give me worst case scenario. So that is something like 3 years. But who knows right?
Anyways.
So I just got off work. She has been off work for an hour and a half now. She has been about an hour late from work every day this week. I called her yesterday ( legitimate question) and she didn’t answer. You know how I feel about that? Nothing. I feel nothing. And if I do feel something. It’s pity for her. There might be a tiny bit of sadness way down deep there. But it’s way way down there , if it’s there at all. This really is a strange feeling. I don’t know what to make if it. Is it rope drop. Is it over? I don’t know. Make sense?
Do we have a chance if I’m not trying at all? Or is that what gives us a chance? Do I actually care. I do love her. Prolly always will. Should I throw out an ILY or some sort of advance just to see if it blows up In my my face lol!! If it does then oh well. Should I sit her down and ask her if she is in out and go from there?
Should I do nothing and wait for lease to be up. Should I put the moves on. Lol. I feel like for me it’s a win win. Regardless of what happens. Make sense. Is this the whole goal of DBing. To get to this spot?
I feel like I could BD her. But I don’t think I will. That seems mean
