Shame and devastation

[Jdevast]

Thanks guys
It's been rough and through it all I just want to hold her.

I have no real choice other than giving her time and space.everything seems out of my control.

Which it is I guess, other than myself.

Going through a rough patch fighting the urge to tell her how I feel and pursuing another chance.

Knowing detaching is best but arguing with myself that she will meet someone else, be happier etc etc.
Nagging negative thought patterns.

Might be posting a lot over the next week.