Weekend was fun as always . Some family time and some GAL. GAL I’m finding I need to keep up just to keep my emotions in check . Gives me time just to breathe and not think too much .
Got into a few R talk over the weekend . H started . Don’t know if it’s really a talk when you just listen . I’m not super strong at Validating so really just listening is easier sometimes . First one was a definite R check on his part . Not a doubt in me he’s trying to pull out my feelings . Nope ! Goes like this “H - so we seem to really like to spend time together “ Me- yes seems so . Saved at that point by a babysitter call . Changed subject after phone call for awhile .Again H - so what were we talking about before the sitter called . Me- I have no idea . H - oh how we like spending time together . Me again - yes . A little bit of him grasping and then I changed subject . Next day -MC was brought up by H and think we should go . I stated I am open to it only if the mind set from both of us is this is to R our marriage not end it . H agreed that is the purpose . Voiced he was so sure months ago when he moved out that he wanted nothing to do with being married ever again and now he’s just sorry . He asked who I was talking too that’s made me so calm and happy . Awkward!!!! Couldn’t say DB forum . Just said I talk to someone . I stopped the R talk after about 10 mins .
So now my dilemma. H has really been kind , sweet talking , pet naming , spending a lot of time with me . Almost as when you first date someone . But is this real or an act ? Ever get that little voice telling you there’s something Just isn’t quite right ?
