you got this Caligirl! Keep it up-- love how you are able to process and separate your emotions from his-- I find that really helps me too when I can step back and think without reacting. This forum is great for helping on that front for me at least.
Me (46) H (42) M:14 T:18, D9 & D11 4/19 - 12/19: series of escalating BDs 9/20 - present: R and piecing