Thank you Scout. I think you’re right. I think I get in my own way because I just can’t wrap my head around the way he’s being. But that’s because I would never behave the way he is without thinking it through and having a good reason. The same obviously can’t be said for him.
You’re right, too, about his ACTIONS being clear. I’ve been aware of that but I’ve allowed myself to ignore and justify and explain it all away to myself.
Sadly I think, despite my being a prize (which I AM) that he just may not feel the sting of losing me because he doesn’t care. Perhaps the sooner I can absorb that the better.
