So today was my birthday, my third without H, and it was actually really nice. I wasn’t looking forward to it as the last two were not really that great as I spent them mostly on my own with either zero or very little acknowledgement of the day from H. The first one he had ended things 4 days before and my parents were away so it sucked. Then the second one H spent the day with D who was 4 at ours ish. They came and went throughout the day and he didn’t left it up to my parents to help d get me a present. This meant he basically ignored the significants of the day and didn’t even wish me a happy Birthday. But this year we have ever so slight progress. He took D to get me a card and gift and he wished me a happy Birthday as he left last night. Well knock me down with a feather. He spent most of yesterday going on about how they had got me something but how D had chosen it and then this morning d told me that H had suggested gifts to get me and had picked the card. 😱 So perhaps he is still progressing after all. I also received a card off my father in law which was a lovely surprise. He hasn’t sent me a birthday or Christmas card since h left. I’ve had the odd text but nothing in at least 6 months. I sent him a thank you text and had a lovely reply back. I have no idea why he’s suddenly started to send me cards but it’s nice as we always got along so well and I do miss him.
All that aside my family and D have given me their time today and we have done some lovely things and my night out with my friends was really lovely. I don’t think it could have been any better.
On a more annoying note my friends are trying to arrange a weekend away for one of their birthdays and this means H will have to have D for a couple of nights. It’s very simple, I’m going and I will have to book it so why the hell does can you have D have to be replied to by h with “ we’ll see. Anything can happen between now and Feb”. What??? It’s only 16 weeks away so I kind of need a yes or a no. And as it’s a weekend and he doesn’t work weekends I don’t see it being that difficult. Seriously what ???? I haven’t actually said who I’m going away with and he was really probing d today about what we spent the day doing. I don’t know if he’s thinking that I might have someone else or if he’s just being difficult on purpose but either way if I want to go I’m going. I’ve not been away for one single night without my d and just my friends since before he left. I’m doing it so whatever it is that he thinks might change it would need to fairly huge and probably unforeseen. Sorry rant over! 😂 Now onto the Ice cream and film because tomorrow I’m back to work.
