Im sure the MLCer gets pulled in both directions because Im sure deep inside there may be voice or a gut intuition that there choices are not great and the pain is still present they cant run from the pain yet they do it anyway and they know they are running but cant stop
Keep moving forward you are making good choices and can trust yourself
Glad you are making new friends also--and having fun
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