Early morning sprawled across the hood of her fancy car, a knife on the ground where it fell from my hand and blood everywhere. She wouldn't care. I would have shared the pain and gained what? Eternal damnation?
What do I do about these thoughts? Keep them hidden, unvoiced or expressed to fester and grow, slowly poisoning my spirit?
Turbine, you can share here, but please speak to a therapist a.s.a.p. if you're having suicidal fantasies. Pain that deep sometimes needs a specialist to help with the healing.
Originally Posted by "Turbine"
If there is a boyfriend... I don't know what I will do. We are still married.
For many--including me when I left my ex-wife--once served and separated the marriage is done. It sounds like you see yourself as married to her, but she does not see herself as married to you.
Hopefully, you'll build a stronger Turbine, that will awe you, your ex, and others!
