This week I have been asked by h are you mad at me a few times .... I don’t feel as if I’m being cold . Just continuing with some DB. I get off the phone first not harshly just saying ok I will talk to you later. Im working on being a better listener and just being quiet when he’s around . I’m starting to notice he tries to explain his actions more . Even apologized for a hurtful statement he made that was way out of line . Rather then blow my lid I ended the convo quickly and went silent . I’ve come to the point that I will no longer allow him to say hurtful things . My silence appears to have the most impact not only on him but mainly helps me not to allow it into my well being . Continues to want to spend time together . Right now if there’s an A there’s no signs of it . He’s not withdrawn , distant or cold . Almost the opposite . Attentive , calls, texts , visits frequently . I’m still holding steady on the distance stance for myself . He’s living in 2 worlds. Mainly ours together but the few days he’s not here the other . He’s openly admitting the grass isn’t so green . The detached part of me knows this is who he is right now so I will just continue on my path . He may catch up . He may not .Going to GAL today and it is much needed !!!!!
