I won't say much, U, because you have a lot of people supporting you right now - so don't feel the need to respond if you don't have time.
You wrote about the "next year of your life".
Do NOT think that far ahead. Please.
Think only about today. Yes, you will at some point have to think about things in the future, but that time is not now. Your emotions are going to be all over the map. Let things settle a bit, refocus, find your center again.
When things get stressful, narrow your timeline wayyyy down and focus on what is happening right now.
You are a smart guy and you knew this was all coming. And now it's happened.
