I would delete mine, except standing orders where I live say not to do that.

Apparently it's cool for her to do stuff like that when she's hiring her atty, and nobody says anything about that. She posts stuff that just adds to my case against her.

I don't like that I'm never going to get closure from this. I know I decided like a year ago to make my own...but the longer this goes on, the more exhausted I get, and the less I understand what I did to deserve this (pretty sure W is BPD). I know that once this is over it'll be easier.

Yesterday I had a conversation with some of her relatives that have never sided with her. W and W's mom are telling people that I'm stalling. The good news is that the people her mom talks to don't believe her at all.

I asked my atty to let me know what it would take to go for full custody at this point because I know that W can't be trusted at all, she's abusive, and she only escalates things...even if I do nothing to her, she will find out about something (like me GAL) and then she'll do things because she knows I'll hear about them one way or another.

I asked if she would watch S on an upcoming day off from school that I have to work on. She said she has plans. She NEVER really makes plans that far in advance, but because I've done the "I've got plans, sorry" thing (I DID make plans), she's just going to use it against me. Her mother won't watch S that day, either. In fact, she didn't respond to my text asking her to help...she instead ran around spreading more lies about me.

This is exhausting. It's gone on so long, and when I start doing better, she finds a way to hoover her way back into my head. It's not okay. I know she's mentally/emotionally abusive...others know it as well and try to be supportive of me...but it doesn't stop.

I only want her to stop and let me live my life and leave me alone. The better I've become at resisting/gray rock/GAL/etc the more determined she's become to mess with me.

She's even told me she was going to take S on my parenting days and take him to a different after school place without my permission. She didn't, but she threatened it.