Thanks for the reply AS. Although I didnt feel ill or trouble sleeping as TX, it's been on my mind throughout the day, even affecting my concentration at my job. And as you said, it may not end until I make a move since its possible it's been going on for over 2 years.
This talk is going to be the hardest thing I've done in my life with the uncertainty of where my life is headed, but once it's done, hopefully I'll have direction, wherever it may lead.