Thought it was time to check in. This has been a tough week for me at work. One of “my kids” (clients) made a serious suicide attempt on Sunday. I didn’t find out about it until Wednesday as I was off on Monday and home with a sick kid on Tuesday. My boss dealt with the immediate fallout of it all and I was at a community meeting for most of the day on Wednesday but stopped in at the hospital at the end of the day to visit with her. She was in a mood and angry that we were not letting her die and accusing her family members and myself of being selfish for “making” her stick around. It was very hard to validate her perspective but I think I did a pretty good job. At the end of our visit, she was a bit better but I think is going to have to remain in hospital for awhile as she will not contract for safety. I’m secretly quite glad about that. Spent some time talking with her mom today and will see both of them again next week. I have spent A LOT of time working with them so this was a disheartening setback. I still have a lot of hope that we can rebound though as the last time I saw them before this happened, both of them were saying things were getting better. I hope we can get back there... I’ve lost one client to suicide in 21 years, I do not want to lose a second.
Wednesday was also my kids’ open house at the school. XH had to work a bit later than usual so I took them and he met us there. The four of us visited their classrooms together. The last time he and I were at the school together was last Christmas and I was close to tears the whole time and trying to resist the urge to punch him in the face. This time was much better. It still felt awkward but mostly I was focused on my kids. We signed up to go to parent-teacher interviews as well and I offered to send him a reminder text closer to the date. He thanked me as we both knew there was a good chance he would forget. Some things never change...lol. Anyway, I think it was good for our kids to see us there together and getting along.
Jack’s job was short lived. He decided after one day that it wasn’t going to work. He said it wasn’t what he expected and the guy that he was working with was a complete jerk. I guess he doesn’t feel financially strained enough yet to work just anywhere. Working in the private sector is much different than what I am used to so I have no judgment about it. I’m very lucky to have the kind of job security and benefits that I do and to work in an environment that is incredibly supportive and respectful of me as a person. That has not been Jack’s experience apparently.
The condo I’m staying in really is peaceful and beautiful. I’m used to an ocean view but here I am right on the water which is just that much better. The weather has been decent. My kids are with me this weekend and my daughter and her bestie are looking forward to swimming in the pool tomorrow and doing some beach combing. I’m having a nice quiet evening in my room while they have the rest of the house. Normally Jack would be here with me but the weather was really bad for driving tonight and he said he is quite tired so decided to drive down tomorrow. I’m not upset about it. My sister and my friend were here last night so I’m a bit tired too. I’m more than happy just to veg in my sweats and enjoy the peace and quiet.
Anyway...that’s it for my update. Hope all is well out there is DB Land and that you all have a wonderful weekend. XO
