Persistent Endurance (Part 6)

[curtis7]

Well DB community my Retrouvaille weekend has arrived!! Things feel awfully surreal with WW this week. Very little interaction and communication. On Monday she texted asking about the plan for my mom watching the kids while we go to RetroV. She said this was getting super inconvenient as we are going to miss D5’s soccer game on Friday, S8’s fall baseball opening day on Saturday, and she’s not able to attend a software training seminar for work that she planned before I brought up attending the weekend. I validated in response and she replied that she is not looking forward to this at all with a frown emoji. I asked if it was because she didn’t know what to expect and she replied I don’t know.

On Tuesday night she came over to feed the horses and D5 left her shoes. So, I brought the shoes over to W’s house before school on Wednesday morning. Took the kids to sports practice that evening. I coached S8’s baseball, W watched D5’s soccer. W came over to the baseball field after soccer practice ended and was friendly with the other parents. We walked to the parking lot together and exchanged some small talk before going our separate ways. A little later she texted saying thank you so much for bringing D5’s shoes over this morning. I have been getting a little different vibe from her lately sort of like she doesn’t mind being around me. Imagine that, feeling like your W isn’t repulsed being around her H.

This evening I texted her asking if she would like to leave around 5pm tomorrow and grab a bite to eat on the way. She replied sure. So, I guess she is okay with us driving to RetroV together. I did request two beds in the room. Not trying to apply any pressure in that regard. Hopefully, I don’t do, say, or write anything that makes my sitch worse. I’ve felt very strong and confident the past few days. Definitely more like I was prior to BD although much more self aware now and with my 180s part of who I am.

I’m feeling really good tonight and eager to spend a weekend with my W. I have no idea how either of us will handle what we’re about to get ourselves into. Whatever happens happens.

Thank you everyone for the support. Wish me luck.