I continue to work toward detachment. It’s a struggle, but it comes in small, brief, fleeting waves. H is in a pattern in which he sends me a vague text related to D stuff, (as in my last post), I respond briefly and affirmatively and then he doesn’t respond or say anything more about it. It feels like he’s testing the waters to see if I’ll freak out on him, and I’m proud to say that I’ve been steady in my resolve. Ive been nothing except cordial and upbeat, and neutrally cooperative in regards to the mentions of D stuff. It’s empowering.
He also continues to be friendly and even flirtatious with me at times, and then retreat to being a bit colder and more withdrawn. He’s made a couple of odd comments about other men finding me attractive lately which catches me off guard. Last night as he left after putting D4 to bed he stopped in the doorway and asked if “everything is going ok”. I’d been nothing but upbeat all evening, and just smiled and said “yup! You?” It’s all curious to me, and I consciously try not to dissect it too much.
