I'm don't think I'm able to change anything with the way that he choose to conduct...Neither how to continue living like nothing happened. We had a really large fight about our relationships, he still refusing of visiting a family therapist. He's not even valuing me.
I completely relate to your feelings of frustration and hoplessness. If you read other's stories you'll realize (as it's already been stated above) that his behavior is the same or similar to everyone else's WHs/WWs.
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I really tried my best
Sounds like you're at your whit's end. We get it.
How long has this been going on? Seems like there might be more to do.
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it's impossible to live with each other without being completely open about your feelings.
It does seem impossible. It feels impossible. I feel it's impossible every day. Then I DECIDE it's not.
It's just counter intuitive and as difficult a thing as there is ever to do. I'm struggling mightily with it but it can be done.
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What would be the best way to start the divorce process? We're on a budget, so I'm afraid to ask how much would it cost of going through divorce process.
I would slow down.
You stated your divorce options pretty well as far attorneys go. I might go see one to find out information and see what you might have to do to protect yourself. If you file, in many states, that takes a lot of your control out of you hands and into the court. You don't want that.
Don't make big decisions right now.
Me 56 W 42 T14 M12 ILYBINILWY 08/07/19 BD 08/11/19 Discovered Whaaaat? 2 Kids One DD 30mos Adopted from Foster 12/18 One DS 17mos Adopting First week of Sept 19 Separate BR 08/15/19