I cheated, we survived, now my wife's cheating

[JC08]

I had several good days, had my girls all weekend, moved into a new house all that type of stuff. When I dropped my girls off, I was nice and tried to get out of there quickly. She asked me how I was doing, I said actually really good, she then asked if I was seeing the OW and if it was making me happy. Told her I wasn't, because I'm not, haven't even talked to her. I don't know where some of this stuff comes from.

Tonight [censored], no kids, nothing to keep my mind from thinking all the horrible thoughts that drive me insane. I know it was the OMs birthday today, I know she was gone all weekend because when I dropped the kids off she was unloading a suitcase. So I know they went somewhere. 3 days without hearing a word from her, 3 days of not reaching out one time about the kids, nothing.

Didn't bother me all weekend, didn't bother me last night, but tonight it just [censored] and I can't find motivation to do anything.

Guess I'm just venting. Not even close to giving up, not even a thought, but would like the overwhelming feelings and thoughts to calm down a little. I guess time will be the cure for that too.